The Hat

The Hat
Originally uploaded by DestinyLeigh.

The picture of Chris I was on about. He looks better in the Oreos one, but he still looks cute, bless him!

New Year Once Again...

As I predicted me and Barker didn't work out too well, it's still very confused and complicated, but then again everyone says their relationships are, even though from everyone else's point of view they're stupidly simple...
I think we wanted different things, 'cause he completely ignores me when his friends are there (except Dash), but then when we're alone it's a battle to get him away from me! For example:
On Wednesday night I decided I was going to come to my dad's house, as my internet wire at my mum's is broken, and Becca was going into town so I agreed I'd hang out with them for a while. Anyway, it turned out Barker was with them and in an entire two hours all he said to me was: "So...how are you?" when Becca, Downzie and Katy wandered off in front, and then when I said to Becca I was gonna go in a while he suggested he walk with me, as seen as his house was on the way and he needed to go to home for some reason and then he would go back into town. He actually went off before me, but the same time I wanted to leave, so I waited for him to walk out the upper exit of the Brunswick and then legged it to the lower floor and came out the other entrance, closest to the direction we both wanted to be in, and I walked quite fast as so to avoid him, but he ran up behind me and started to walk with me. I didn't mind at first, but then we came to the road where we could go two ways, one where he would come out on his street and the other going along the road going past his house. So of course as he headed towards the first option, I quickly took the second, but he said "Oh, are you going that way? I'll come with you." and followed. We carried on walking and he asked what was wrong with me and why I was so quiet, and I just said I was feeling a bit out of it, using the period pains I'd had that weekend as my cover, and he gave me a hug. I returned it, but pulled away quicker than normal and carried on walking, and he put his arm round my waist! Usually I would do the same to him, but I kinda refused and then gave him a quick hug outside his house and walked off quickly...baring in mind I didn't make eye-contact with him once, he didn't seem to bothered what was actually wrong with me...even when I hugged him I just turned my head right away from him, as normally when we pull away from a hug we end up getting off, so that left him kinda thrown, and when I didn't put my arm around his waist, he sorta started to pull away, as if unsure, put then put if back, holding me a little closer. It's damn confusing!
Anyway, Elliot is convinced that he's fallen in love with me, but as I myself was one a screaming fangirl (oh, the shame!), I know what it's like to IMAGINE or THINK you're in love. He actually might be, and I've always believed you could fall in love even at our age (even though he's in the year above me), but it just doesn't seem likely for some reason. He's in Kenya at the moment anyway and has called and txt me everyday except yesterday and today, but I think he's in trouble for putting £45 on his dad's phone just on Thursday and using it to call me...in all he reckons he's used over £100 contacting me since he went on...erm...Saturday? And he's bought me an 18kr gold bracelet AND wants me to go to New York and Canada for 9 days in April, and I don't have to pay for the plane or anything. I don't think it's a very good idea, I don't want him to get the WRONG idea...He's practically begging me to go out with him, and it feels like he's bribing me, but I just don't want to go out with him. I honestly don't really see him in that way. At all.
And then there's Chris, which is another reason not to go out with Elliot. I sorta vowed to myself that I would be single when I go to see him in April, after he had that as one of his New Years Resolutions...I have another photo of him too, in this random little hat his mum knitted him, it looks kinda cute though...
I've made up with Becca, but she now knows exactly what I've done with Barker *cough*...and she let Downzie find out, who told Ozzy and Kerrie. Ozzy told like all of them lot and keeps asking me about it, and Kerrie told Sarah and Angela. Annabelle heard me and Becca talking about it, and now Amy and Abby know too. And also Craig Blair, who goes to my school but is friends with Elliot, has got the idea I did stuff with Elliot too. Which is ALMOST true. He wanted me to do stuff, but I definately did not! Thankfully...
I'm not being to hard on Kerrie about telling people though, as I found out the reason her mum split up with Dave last year, after 9 years, is that he went into Kerrie's room on a night and tried it on with her...that's when there was all the stuff about Becca going on, 'cause she started telling people that she's been beaten up and abused as a kid, 'cause she didn't like the attention Kerrie was getting 'cause of it. Kerrie had to talk to police and counsellors and everything...
I'll post again some time soon, when I've organised my life a bit for a whole New Year!

Regresa a Mi

Well...I'm kinda going out with Barker. KINDA. It's not really too successful, and he wants to kill Elliot, literally.
Just after my last post he called me and asked me out, it's just 'cause I wrote that isn't it? He said he loves me ALREADY after I've only known him about 4 days, and he wonders why I argue with him about it...I do like him. A lot. But I'm not sure if it's gonna work out, unless we get Elliot totally out of the picture, meaning I can't call him, talk to him or hang out with him.
I don't want to doubt that it's gonna work though, 'cause doubt is what makes things fail, right? Don't really know what I'm on about...
Barker's also in a bit of a panic, he thinks I'm getting beaten up or something 'cause I've got bruises all over me that I can't explain (mainly 'cause I actually don't know how I got them), and I've got little cuts on my wrists. I'm not sure why I did it, I don't want to die or anything, I just wanted to cut myself. They're not deep, I mean, they did bleed a bit, but now they're just pink slashes.
Elliot noticed as well, but 'cause it was a little swollen and looked as if it was bruised, I passed it off as falling over.
I dunno what I'm doing lately, Becca's falling out with me I think, she'd getting more and more distant and has said stuff to people about me...I'm gonna try and talk to her about it and see what's going on before I presume though...
Can't really be bothered to write a lot. Don't seem to be assed with the computer anymore, I just wanna be out all the time. Luv Leigh

Whatever jingles your bells...

Gawd! I've had so much guy trouble since I met Downzie and that lot. You'd think I had mistletoe permanently taped to my forehead (We see the Christmas theme here?)!
I wrote about the Downzie thing where we were watching the Grudge, right? Well that's the least of my troubles!
Becca, Neil, Ozzy and Downzie were all drinking at Becca's house on a Saturday night, and I had a bit of this mix Downzie had made that had loads of different things in, but Neil got proper pissed, and had cider and stuff as well...I was already a bit stressed out, and when Neil tried to get off with me in the doorway of Becca's kitchen I'd decided I'd had enough and after quickly saying goodbye to Becca and Downzie I sorta stormed out, stepping over Neil in the hallway where I'd left him after I'd shoved him away from me.
It wasn't really a big deal, only that Elliot had asked me out the previous night, and I hadn't given a definite answer, I just kept saying: "I dunno...I dunno..." and pretending I was drunk 'cause Becca actually was, but Ozzy started talking to me like I was a complete retard and going: "Kayleigh? It's Ozzy...you remember who Ozzy is, don't you?"
Also that night I'd told Downzie that Elliot had asked me out, 'cause Becca was too drunk to talk to him on the phone, and I knew he'd called Elliot after he'd finished talking to me, but apparently he'd had a go at Elliot about it, saying he was scaring me or something...
On the Wednesday, last week the day before yesterday...yeah, something like that...Mum let me skip last two lessons to go see Elliot at College with Becca. So we left school at lunch and went into town, and Elliot was trying to impress me on the guitar (he even told me).
Then the day after, the Thursday, I agreed to meet Elliot after school 'cause we had a little argument after I said I wouldn't go to a gig with him Wednesday night and he said it was just 'cause I didn't want to hang out with him. Anyway, I sat with him in the Crescent (a little park in town) and he kept putting his hands down my top and I agreed to kiss him, but wouldn't get off with him (until later when he was EXTREMELY drunk). I agreed to give him a try, so I had him on trial period.
THEN...what happened after that? Well, Elliot got grounded 'cause he was full paralytic and trashed Tescos, before being escorted home. But on the Friday, I think, he snuck out to see me, trekking from Osgoby (Yeah, I know it's spelt wrong, so sue me!)all the way to Scarborough, through fields and falling in a river in the process, and dropping his phone in it.
That night he also got to sleep over at my mum's house 'cause it was 11pm till my mum got in, and he didn't want to go home and face his parents, so 'cause mum was a little drunk and in a good mood she let him sleep on the air-bed on the floor of our room. And...*cough*...me and him...well, did a tad more than getting off. And Downzie and Becca found out he'd had my top of at one point...*blush*
I he also came out to see me over the weekend at some point, Saturday or Sunday, and he was full suicidal 'cause his parent's had taken ALL FIVE of his guitars off him.
In fact, he did come out Saturday night, 'cause it was Snowave! It was a bit of a crap gig, but me and Anna just hung out all night and enjoyed ourselves, and Barker was apparently with us that night...
THEN (again) on the Monday...NO, Tuesday, 'cause I was supposed to go to XS with Becca and Kerrie, but didn't... I met Barker properly (*cough*) after he'd kept nicking my hat and got us chucked out of Olympia for running about. After we hung around on the sea front, Becca got all sulky after I'd been wrestling with Downzie for my hat, and I sat with her, but she moved after just a minute or two, so Barker replaced her and put his arm around my waist, so we walked up town with our arms around each other and ended up randomly getting off in the town center. ;) But before we had, Ozzy and Downzie started pretending to beat Barker up and calling him a 'woman stealing bastard' and stuff, and saying I was being harsh on Elliot.
So Barker was txting me until, like, I went to bed, and I called Elliot to say I didn't want to go out with him, and it turned out Neil had told him I got of with someone, but I had to tell him it was Barker, who he'd met the previous day at Snowave.
Then I went to another gig on Wednesday and didn't enjoy myself at first, 'cause Barker was ignoring me, but I got VERY hyper with Angela, so hyper in fact people kept asking if we were drunk or stoned, and Barker left early.
THEN he called me later asking if I'd enjoyed myself and apologizing for ignoring me, and saying he left 'cause he was bored and it was shit. But then Elliot called me on my house phone at the same time, so I was talking to them both, but Elliot got all sulky and went off the phone. But he called me back when I got into bed and I talked to him in whispers until mum came to bed, and he asked if I went out with Barker, but I just laughed and said no.
Yesterday I did bugger all 'cause Becca was messin' me about, so I just stayed in and returned the favor by helping Chris solve his girl problems, and in the morning I was on the phone to Elliot for an hour and a half! Dash also txt me off Barker's phone asking me out for Barker, but I had no credit, so didn't reply.
Then today Dash txt me again, telling me to answer the question, so I called to sort it out, but left Barker to beat up Dash for it. Dash must have called me back about 6 times and wouldn't let me go to get changed to meet Becca at 11:30am.
Anyway, today was wicked as me, Downzie, Barker and Ben got to hang out on our own for a while and went round all the game shops before getting a pizza! DREAM DAY OR WHAT? To top it off Downzie lifted me up and turned me upside down, and I randomly ended up getting off with Barker again, even though we said it wasn't going to happen again. I'm not sure why it's happened twice now...Becca kept saying we suited each other, more than me and Elliot, but I don't think we'll end up going out...we might, but I'm not sure it's gonna happen...
I'll keep you posted...

Lights, Camera, ACTION!

Right, I'd wrote loads towards this post, but I have so much to write that I'll do it point by point, in order of when it happened. I wouldn't normally do it like this, but I've been so super busy! Woooooo!

- I probably told you: Me, Becca and Kerrie slept at Nicolle's for her birthday, and before me and Nicolle picked them up, we went down to the arcades to chill out. It was totally random, all these boy racers kept beeping their horns at us, one of them four times! And one of them pulled over and asked if we wanted a ride...
- I'm being Cinderella in our Christmas pantomime thing! Kerrie is being Buttons and Becca, Amy, Sarah, Annabelle and Angela are all in it too. I'm really looking forward to it, it's really weird being the main character.
- Wohooooo! Me, mum and Stacey all went to MeatLoaf the story, and Becca went with her mum, Dez and Claire. It was fantastic! The 2nd guitarist was exellent and really fit!

Taken Wednesday October 29th, 2004. I'm on the far left, my cousin Chloe in the middle and my sister Stacey on the right. Taken in Whitby at a photo place called Victorian Image. 

Taken on Oct. 3rd 2004 I think. I was at Peasholm Park with Angela and Stacey. 

Just quickly...

Hey, just randomly posting so I can have some rest from thinking about posting for a couple of days. It's turning into a ritual now, but I'm still enjoying having a rant to nobody about everything.
Went to Westwood on Thursday with Amy and Anna to get our Halloween costumes. It's Yorkshire Coast College, Westwood Campus; School of Art and Design. Amy's dad is head of Drama there, me and Anna were full buzzed. They have a proper 'Theater in the Round' thing, and we got to go right through it and below it. We were also released in the Costume Room place. It's really big! Only about 3, maybe 4, meters wide, with shelves and rails all along the walls, but really long, there must have been hundreds of costumes! We were trying on anything and everything, just picking up the outfits one-by-one and running up and down in them. In the end I settled for this sort of crushed velvet, bright red Ringmasters jacket, with a battered top-hat from the Prop Room, and I'm gonna do my makeup all gothic and ghostly. Anna chose this really nice black strapless dress, with a kinda pink toto (sp?) underneath, a black curly clowns wig and one white, long crushed velvet glove. She's gonna go as a mis-matched zombie clown thing. Amy on the other hand when for the most stupid outfit in the whole room: a khaki green baloclava with a huge turtle shell. It's absolutely ridiculous. So, we're going out on Halloween to Whitby Abbey, I'm gonna be so freaked out 'cause that's where I set my latest English story.
Slept at Nicolle's on Friday, write about it tomorrow 'cause Mum's just come back in. Laters.